Tot ce mi-am dorit

Esti tot ce mi-am dorit vreodata

Antenele tale luuuungi si arcuite, ferme la atingere dar fine ca o petala de Plumeria, pe care le inclini usor de care ori ma vezi, ma fac sa vibrez toata. Picioarele tale usor prea departate, dar pufoase si mereu bine curatate ma fac fericita! (Pe bune acum, nu inteleg de ce femeile nu apreciaza picioarele barbatilor la fel cum se intampla invers. Corpul vostru e sub-apreciat. Daca ar fi dupa mine, sexul frumos ati fi voi, iar sexul puternic noi. Oricum noi putem face tot ce faceti voi si in plus si copii. Oricum voi sunteti mai sensibili, treceti mai greu peste greutatile vietii…)

Asa, cum spuneam. Esti tot ce mi-am dorit vreodata. Imi place cum te pui seara langa mine si imi intinzi doua gherute ca sa ma agat de ele si sa ne leganam. Asa cum faceam cand eram mica cu mama. Imi place si cand vrei sa te las singur, cand esti absorbit de vrejul-vartejul de aur incercand sa pui in ordine toate acele particule care mie nu-mi spun nimic. Imi place cum mirosi dimineata cand te dezmortesti si astepti soarele sa te incalzeasca. Ai aroma de lemn dulce, proaspat taiat. Imi place cum mirosi si atunci cand esti deasupra mea si ma speli cu limba ta aspra. E un miros patrunzator, intepator, fiindca esti atat de concentrat. Ca de ridiche amara.

Iti scriu acum pe frunze inghetate ca sa iti dai seama cat te iubesc. Nu te-as inlocui cu nimeni altul, pentru ca nu exista altul mai bun. Poate doar daca o sa fii strivit vreodata (sper sa nu se intample prea curand!) o sa caut pe altul. Insa voi sta cu el doar pentru oua, stii asta. Gandul meu tot la tine va fi. Dar sa nu fim negativisti! Ce e important este ca acum esti langa mine si sper sa schimbam saliva cat mai mult timp!

Abia astept sa vina vacanta si sa plecam impreuna pe Orion! Acolo o sa putem sa ne jucam cu bule (stii ca au cea mai mare cascada minerala din univers???), sa rontaim galuste de roze si sa bem cacao-curacao. O sa citim in fiecare seara un verset scris de cine-stie-ce mare Creier solar si o sa radem fara sa ne auda nimeni de ultimele expeditii extra-galactice. Ce prosti sunt unii! Sa creada ca pot prinde Sfarsitul si trage apoi spre Inceput… Dar trebuie sa fie si unii ca ei. Altfel noi nu am mai avea ce manca, nu?

Da, Liuliuliuul meu drag. Esti tot ce mi-am dorit vreodata. Toti ochii tai sunt blanzi, perisorii moi si gura marunta. Imi place totul la tine, mai ales cum ma iubesti cu grija, sa nu uiti vreo particica din corpul meu mare (chiar, nu ti se pare ciudat ca noi suntem de 3 ori mai mari decat voi? de ce oare?!). Imi place cum taci, imi place cum inspiri si cum expiri deopotriva. Imi place lumea ta interioara, e ca un caleidoscop, asa ca abia astept sa te mai intorc, pe toate partile, sa te cunosc mai bine!

Cam atat deocamdata. Daca imi mai vin idei iti spun.

Te saruuuut!

Daca as fi…

Daca as fi un director de companie pasionat de ‘sailing‘, te-as compara cu prima iesire pe mare cu yahtul personal, imbracat intr-un tricou alb, cu un pulover albastru pe umeri.

Daca as fi o baroana celebra, care organizeaza petreceri acasa, te-as compara cu prezenta celor mai inalte personalitati si cele mai scumpe tartine cu caviar pe pat de somon fume si andive.

Daca as fi un tanar dezvoltator de aplicatii mobile, pasionat de telecomunicatii, te-as compara cu ultimul model de telefon oferit cadou de compania pentru care am dezvoltat un proiect de succes.

Daca as fi un trainer incepator, pasionat de cercetare in domeniul energiilor alternative, te-as compara cu aplauzele reprezentantilor companiilor petroliere in urma unui training revolutionar.

Daca as fi o ‘fashionista’ pasionata de moda, stil si design vestimentar, te-as compara cu un out-fit Alexander McQueen, o pereche de pantofi Manolo Blahnik si o geanta Vuitton.

Daca as fi pasionata de plante si flori rare… Daca as fi pasionata de tatuaje, motociclete si ‘rideuri’ pe munte… Daca as fi pasionata de fitness, pisici albastre de Rusia, delicatese frantuzesti, rujuri, goblenuri, jocuri pe calculator, inteligenta artificiala, muzica clasica, programare neuro-lingvistica… te-as compara cu tot ce mi-ar aduce mai multa bucurie.

Pentru ca tu asta faci. Aduci bucurie

Am zarit lumina

Marin Sorescu – Am zărit lumina

Am zarit lumina pe pamant
Si m-am nascut si eu
Sa vad ce mai faceti
Sanatosi? Voinici?
Cum o mai duceti cu fericirea?
Multumesc, nu-mi raspundeti.
Nu am timp de raspunsuri,
Abia daca am timp sa pun intrebari
Dar imi place aici.
E cald, e frumos,
Si atata lumina incat
Creste iarba.
Iar fata aceea, iata,
Se uita la mine cu sufletul…
Nu, draga, nu te deranja sa ma iubesti.
O cafea neagra voi servi, totusi
Din mana ta.
Imi place ca tu stii s-o faci
Amara.

Improvisneyland

Minunat! Incredibil! Hilar! Surprinzator! Genial! Teribil! Nemaipomenit! Multicolor! Splendid! Nemaivazut! Amuzant! Folositor! Nu, nu este textul de reclama al unui produs de calitate germana. Nici anuntul strigat in gura mare de un clovn pentru a atrage trecatorii la un numar de circ. Este reactia fireasca a celor care au fost la workshopul Improvisneyland si la spectacolele lor

Luna trecuta m-am inscris la workshopul de improvizatie tinut de trupa de improvizatie initiata de Axel Moustache pe care il stiam din intalnirile pantomimice cu Pass-Partout si Dan Puric, Axel facand parte si din aceasta trupa. Apoi, o data pe saptamana de la 8:00-10:00 pm. in calda si primitoarea locatie cu carti Books Express grupa noastra s-a intalnit si s-a jucat… dar deloc in joaca!

Am facut jocuri pe care le fac si studentii la teatru. Aparent jocuri, insa in fapt exercitii: de cunoastere, de atentie, de imaginatie. Exercitii pe care daca le practici destul de mult timp te ajuta sa ii cunosti mai repede si mai bine pe cei de langa tine, sa fii mai atent la ei si la ce se intalmpla in jur, sa te concentrezi mai bine, sa iti invingi cenzura, sa iti eliberezi imaginatia, pe care in acelasi timp sa o controlezi-canalizezi spre un anume scop si in final, sa poti sa intri in orice rol, sa construiesti povesti. Toate acestea bune in improvizatie pe scena, sau in viata, in fiecare zi.

Un workshop care te ajuta sa te cunosti si pe tine mai bine, care te provoaca sa-ti depasesti limitele/ frustrarile/ autoconstrangerile, sa gandesti mai repede si mai logic, sa iti ascuti imaginatia… Minunat!

Puteti sa vedeti produsul finit in urma anilor de exercitii in spectacolele lor, in fiecare vineri, sambata si duminica Si daca aveti putin curaj si curiozitate, puteti sa va inscrieti la urmatorul workshop care va incepe de anul viitor: cu incepatori sau avansati. Stati cu ochii pe improvisneyland.ro si veniti la spectacole. Fiecare e diferit, avand in vedere ca se construieste pe loc si veti ramane foarte surprinsi cand veti vedea ce se poate face, cu 4 minti deschise, 1 cantator la clape si 1 titlu ales de public

Pana una alta invat, iar in weekend merg sa-i vad pe profesionisti in Scala Pub. Pentru ca fiecare spectacol e altfel!

Numai zambete!

100 de lucruri despre mine – ENFJ

Sa continui deci cu urmatoarele 50 de lucruri despre mine, un pic altfel

Se pare ca m-am schimbat din primavara asta – in ultimele 8 luni – am devenit mai asezata, mai ordonata, mai rationala…

You can test yourself here: www.similarminds.com/jung.html – I find it very useful, both from personal and professional point of view.

Extroverted (E) 66.67% Introverted (I) 33.33%
Intuitive (N) 51.16% Sensing (S) 48.84%
Feeling (F) 59.46% Thinking (T) 40.54%
Judging (J) 55.56% Perceiving (P) 44.44%

ENFJ – “Persuader”. Outstanding leader of groups. Can be aggressive at helping others to be the best that they can be. 2.5% of total population.

outgoing, social, attention seeking, emotional, loving, organized, comfortable around others, involved, open, hyperactive, complimentary, punctual, considerate, altruistic, easily hurt, religious, neat, content, positive, affectionate, image conscious, good at getting people to have fun, easily excited, perfectionist, assertive, ambitious, leader, hard working, seductive, touchy, group oriented

favored careers:

casting directory, film critic, wedding planner, work in the performing arts, teacher (art, preschool, elementary), actor, fashion designer, news anchor, fashion merchandiser, school psychologist, broadcaster, stylist, interior designer, event coordinator, restaurant owner, childcare worker, hair stylist, film director, counselor, dancer

disfavored careers:

race car driver, scientist, computer specialist, airline pilot, computer programmer, financial manager, epidemiologist, truck driver, electrical engineer, software designer, web designer, business consultant, dj, bookseller

(from here)

ENFJs are the benevolent ‘pedagogues’ of humanity. They have tremendous charisma by which many are drawn into their nurturant tutelage and/or grand schemes. Many ENFJs have tremendous power to manipulate others with their phenomenal interpersonal skills and unique salesmanship. But it’s usually not meant as manipulation — ENFJs generally believe in their dreams, and see themselves as helpers and enablers, which they usually are.

ENFJs are global learners. They see the big picture. The ENFJs focus is expansive. Some can juggle an amazing number of responsibilities or projects simultaneously. Many ENFJs have tremendous entrepreneurial ability.

ENFJs are, by definition, Js, with whom we associate organization and decisiveness. But they don’t resemble the SJs or even the NTJs in organization of the environment nor occasional recalcitrance. ENFJs are organized in the arena of interpersonal affairs. Their offices may or may not be cluttered, but their conclusions (reached through feelings) about people and motives are drawn much more quickly and are more resilient than those of their NFP counterparts.

ENFJs know and appreciate people. Like most NFs, (and Feelers in general), they are apt to neglect themselves and their own needs for the needs of others. They have thinner psychological boundaries than most, and are at risk for being hurt or even abused by less sensitive people. ENFJs often take on more of the burdens of others than they can bear.

(from here)

Idealist – Teacher

Even more than the other Idealists,Teachers have a natural talent for leading students or trainees toward learning, or as Idealists like to think of it, they are capable of calling forth each learner’s potentials. Teachers (around two percent of the population) are able – effortlessly, it seems, and almost endlessly-to dream up fascinating learning activities for their students to engage in. In some Teachers, this ability to fire the imagination can amount to a kind of genius which other types find hard to emulate. But perhaps their greatest strength lies in their belief in their students. Teachers look for the best in their students, and communicate clearly that each one has untold potential, and this confidence can inspire their students to grow and develop more than they ever thought possible.

In whatever field they choose, Teachers consider people their highest priority, and they instinctively communicate personal concern and a willingness to become involved. Warmly outgoing, and perhaps the most expressive of all the types, Teachers are remarkably good with language, especially when communicating in speech, face to face. And they do not hesitate to speak out and let their feelings be known. Bubbling with enthusiasm, Teachers will voice their passions with dramatic flourish, and can, with practice, become charismatic public speakers. This verbal ability gives Teachers a good deal of influence in groups, and they are often asked to take a leadership role.

Teachers like things settled and organized, and will schedule their work hours and social engagements well ahead of time — and they are absolutely trustworthy in honoring these commitments. Valuing as they do interpersonal cooperation and harmonious relations, Teachers are extraordinarily tolerant of others, are easy to get along with, and are usually popular wherever they are.

Teachers are highly sensitive to others, which is to say their intuition tends to be well developed. Certainly their insight into themselves and others is unparalleled. Without a doubt, they know what is going on inside themselves, and they can read other people with uncanny accuracy. Teachers also identify with others quite easily, and will actually find themselves picking up the characteristics, emotions, and beliefs of those around them. Because they slip almost unconsciously into other people’s skin in this way, Teachers feel closely connected with those around them, and thus show a sincere interest in the joys and problems of their employees, colleagues, students, clients, and loved ones.

(from here)

Of all the Idealists, the Teacher (ENFJ) is the most likely to seek leadership positions in the private or public sector. The Teacher is drawn to careers in education or social services, such as college professor, high school teacher, social worker, or non-profit director. In business they are often trainers, sales managers, recruiters, or executives. Since they are good at building relationships, they may be fund raisers or recruiters. They also are found in jobs such as a health advisor, clergy, facilitator, or counselor. Says Rene, “It’s very important to me to really connect with my students. I need to feel that I am making a difference in their lives.”

The Teacher is likely to become stressed if they experience an absence of trust and too much pressure to conform. They also dislike interpersonal conflict. If this happens, they may become excessively critical, which is antithetical to their normal positive self. One of the signs that the Teacher is in high stress is muscle tics or cramps. To recover, this normally social type must be left alone. Solitude and journal writing can help them get back to normal. Also getting out of the current arena of conflict and taking on a new project can restore their sense of self. Says Josephina, “My old boss and I worked like a charm. I had plenty of freedom and a crew to lead. Then she retired and my new boss was quite different. She wanted to inspect everything I did and insisted upon her way of doing everything. Some of her ideas were good, but others didn’t work at all. She wouldn’t listen to me. I got a tic in my right eye and had problems sleeping because of restless leg syndrome which I’d never had before. Something had to change. Then I heard about a special project which needed a new team and I applied. I’m now on the team, my tic and restless leg syndrome is gone. I never realized before how much I needed to be trusted and free to exchange ideas on improving things.”

Bethany is an Idealist Teacher (ENFJ). She was fairly popular in high school and had her pick of young men. Later, she continued to find it easy to find dates. Her real problem was that she just couldn’t find what she was looking for. She joked that she was like Goldilocks. Bethany finally realized that she was holding onto an ideal that no man could match. She began dating an old friend and discovered that a relationship doesn’t have to be perfect to be satisfying and fulfilling.

100 de lucruri despre mine

1. am o pisica. un pisoi. negru – Titzi. foarte afectuos, comunicativ, de neinlocuit

2. cred ca zambetul sincer face oamenii mult mai frumosi

3. nu ascult muzica in mod normal, doar cate o melodie. imi place sa ascult insa cand conduc. sau la un concert/ in club

4. imi place lumea – natura, oamenii – sa cunosc, sa simt

5. imi place sa mananc. sa gatesc, sa vad, sa miros, sa vorbesc despre mancare

6. am parul brunet. a fost si roscat, portocaliu, saten cu suvite blonde, negru-albastrui, visiniu, aramiu…

7. imi place sa citesc. imi plac cartile. cred ca sunt cel mai bun cadou

8. vreau sa schimb lucruri in apartamentul unde stau. sa-l fac mai frumos, mai “acasa”

9. dupa ce voi face apartamentul frumos, o sa invit din cand in cand oameni – sa povestim/ gatim/ sa ne jucam

10. imi place jobul pe care il am. vreau sa devin din ce in ce mai buna in ceea ce fac si sa fac lucruri din ce in ce mai importante

11. am un prieten care pana acum m-a facut fericita. sper sa trecem impreuna peste orice

12. imi place sa dansez

13. imi doresc sa invat sa scriu. o carte. iar asta se va intampla doar daca citesc. si scriu.

14. as fi vrut sa am o voce/ ureche muzicala mai buna

15. as vrea sa stiu cand trebuie sa insist si cand sa las oamenii in pace

16. am avut o viata pestrita pana acum

17. nu tin minte sa povestesc lucruri prin care am trecut.

18. nu stiu sa spun bancuri

19. imi place teatrul. sa incerc sa joc teatru – as fi vrut sa am mai mult talent la asta

20. cred ca oamenii depind de genele care s-au combinat in ei si de educatia primita in familie

21. cred ca relatia dintre parintii nostri ne afecteaza toate relatiile viitoare – intr-un fel sau altul

22. imi plac imbratisarile

23. sunt o persoana tactila. si gustativa. si vizuala

24. vreau sa simt picaturi de apa pe fata, dimineata la munte, picurate de pe niste frunze.

25. as vrea sa am timp mai mult pentru fotografii

26. imi doresc sa iau examenul de Cambridge Advanced cu o nota decenta

27.  cred ca oamenii care se iubesc se pot logodi, insa casatoria se face doar dupa ce te-ai hotarat ca vrei un copil

28. cred ca o sa-mi fie greu sa ma hotarasc sa vreau un copil cu cineva. nu-mi plac divorturile. mai ales cand este un copil implicat…

29. sunt extrovertita insa procentul variaza de la 55-85% in functie de mediu si oameni

30. as vrea sa intorc timpul inapoi, sa schimb niste lucruri

31. imi place Salvador Dali

32. cateodata sunt rea, altadata sunt prea buna. nu prea stiu cand ar trebui sa fiu rea sau buna

33. ma atrag mult toate artele. tot ce e ciudat. dar nu misterios, nici spectaculos. doar interesant.

34. ma obisnuiesc cu lucrurile din jur, nu le misc de la locul lor. insa daca totusi le schimb ordinea ma obisnuiesc foarte repede cu noua ordine. pe care iarasi o pastrez. sunt putin obsesiv-compulsiva. si perfectionista

35. oamenii de obicei ma plac.

36. am o mica problema cu autoritatea/ persoanele autoritare/ ironice. incerc sa depasesc aceasta problema stabilind limite si spunandu-le cand le-au incalcat

37. imi place sa ma invelesc cu plapuma. chiar si cand nu e foarte frig. cred ca ma face sa ma simt protejata

38. de obicei eu protejez pe altii si las impresia ca nu am nevoie. insa uneori am.

39. fetele sunt mai frumoase decat baietii

40. am descoperit doua ingrediente esentiale ce trebuie cautate la un potential partener: sa fi avut o sora (in felul acesta se obisnuieste cu faptul ca femeile sunt diferite de el si au anumite trasaturi specifice), sa fi stat singur (stie sa aiba grija de el, sa manance, sa spele, sa calce, isi da seama de importanta lucrurilor de genul asta)

41. cred ca cel mai trist lucru este cand doi oameni se despart dupa ce au facut un copil

42. mai trist decat cel mai trist lucru este cand partenerul tau… ajunge sa nu mai fie deloc…

43. imi place Marin Sorescu. si George Toparceanu, Ion Minulescu, Mircea Dinescu – poezie

44. as vrea sa fiu un personaj de poveste. sa traiesc intr-o ciuperca

45. stiu sa incep lucruri. trebuie sa invat mai bine cum se pastreaza

46. sunt egoista. si lacoma. iau ce-mi place si fac nazuri cand la pachet cu ce e frumos vad si lucruri neplacute. ar trebui sa le accept pe cele din urma fiindca fara ele nici primele n-ar fi posibile.

47. ma uit la “Lie to me” si-mi place la nebunie – inveti microexpresii ce ascund cate o emotie. oamenii nu sunt constienti de ele si ii tradeaza. iti poti da seama astfel cand mint. si de ce.

48. imi plac mirosurile oamenilor. fiecare om are un miros al lui. le tin minte doar pe ale celor dragi.  frumos

49.  daca strang o haina a cuiva in brate, sau ma imbrac cu ea, e ca si cand omul acela ar fi langa mine

50. urmatoarele 50 de lucruri, data viitoare ma duc sa ma uit la “Lie to me”

Parapantistul

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